You may want to reach out to
Christian, Jewish or whatever you believe in…Family Services. Most religions have one. Good luck & my heart 
goes with you, may you find peace with whatever your choice is!
Most people who are looking into adoption do so because of finances. Sometimes it’s because you don’t feel like you’re able to parent.
Many times the situations are temporary or resolve themselves.
Please don’t work with an adoption agency. They don’t properly inform mom’s of their rights etc.
I won’t judge you based on any decision you make and I also don’t want to steal your baby… But if you just need help or someone to talk to, feel free to reach out.
Adult adoptees being told yet again that if we disagree with something it’s because our lives sucked and we should sit down and shut up.
Adoption is born from trauma. No matter what age you’re separated from your family, that is traumatic. At least for older children people kinda understand that and get them counseling. At least older children have begun to develop their own personality and have that pre-trauma personality to fall back on.
Infant adoptees don’t. Infant adoptees are supposedly “blank slates” and folks assume their trauma responses of fawning, mirroring, and self-denial (among others) are just “fitting in with the family” rather than serious developmental problems.
Do some research. Adoptees are overrepresented in addiction counseling, in mental health treatment, in suicide attempts. Make sure your research is outside of adoption agencies, who profit from trading in human children.