I need some reassurance. My family (me husband two kids) were supposed to leave today to go to Aruba. We’ve never traveled like this, and planned it over a year ago. Last night I started having huge panic attacks, throwing up, shaking out of fear of going. I tried to sleep it off and felt the same/worse today. I just feel like something bad was going to happen. My husband isn’t upset with me, so he says, but I can’t get on the plane. It isn’t just the plane though. So this spectacular vacation we were supposed to go on, we’re not. Because of me. But even now, I can’t fathom boarding the plane. It isn’t my first time flying so I’m not sure why I feel this way. I cancelled the whole thing. I feel so bad for my husband. So so so bad. I just couldn’t do it.