You will never escape mom guilt no matter how hard you try. You will lay in bed at night going over everything you wish you had done different during the day and feeling guilty about it. You will vow to do better “tomorrow”. It’s just part of being a mom. If you’re a yeller, then you’re a a yeller 
. Try keeping your windows open as much as possible, we tend to yell less if the neighbors can hear us 
Don’t allow yourself to use those words with your kids. Things become habitual. If you set boundaries, you don’t cross them. My daughter is 15, I never allowed myself to yell at or or be aggressive in any way. Our relationship is beautiful 
Look up gentle parenting. They teach you ways to be more understanding with your kids to not resort to yelling or hurting them physically. When toddlers push your buttons they’re testing your boundaries but want to feel safe regardless. Use a firm voice when telling them not to do things, if they do something bad instead of hitting them take away something they like and use often like a toy or tell them they were bad and don’t get to watch what they were or playing with pets, etc.
Hugs mama. Lots of great advice here. The fact that you recognize it and want to change it makes you a better mom/person. 
Just remember that when they make a mistake they don’t always realize it’s a problem or that they did something bad, and instead of yelling or spanking or whatever, sit down and tell them WHY they can’t do that. Most children’s questions include the word “why” because they are always learning and wondering. Take time to realize what happened, how you should be reacting and then act. Not all children learn best through physical discipline (spanking) and not all learn from yelling and it can really cause problems for their mental health in the future. I struggle with this! Any time I heard yelling from anyone it always made me feel very horrible, and since then I still get scared of yelling and watch every. single. move i make. Take these things into consideration! Best of luck!! 
1st off good for you for trying to be better for your babies
Just breath and remind yourself you wouldn’t want to be yelled at so don’t treat your kids like that, they are little humans with big feelings and they are still trying to find the right ways to express them feeling. remind yourself to be patient, explain everything to them so they understand why your upset but do it in a calm soft voice. If you do yell apologize to them and let them know that you got overwhelmed and didn’t mean to take it out on them and that you love them very much.
Also remberber if you yell then you are teaching them that’s how to react to situations they don’t like.
Best of luck you got this.
There are a few groups on Facebook for gentle parenting and I see alot of good advice given in them.
meditation, thinking before you yell, walking away immediately when you are feeling this way, talk therpy, yoga. I have had these moments/ all moms do 
thinking before I react is key for me.
Listen to them… take them to the park. Teach them how to pray. Cook with them… let them sit on your lap teach them about nature… take them to the park. Teach them manners. Bake cookies with them… and when you are mad at them tell them why…
Give yourself grace. You are a great mom because you care enough to even ask.
Breathe. Stop the yelling and take a few mins a day to just calm and recollect your thoughts.
You have to rewire your brain to remain calm. With little kids, you have to pick your battles. If they destroy the house. Take a breath… That is just fine. Smile and tell them its time to help clean up and help the help you. Some things literally just do not matter… Spill or break? We will have nice things when they grow up. Being annoying getting into everything? They’re bored. Color or sing or dance or read or take a walk with them… Parenting patience is a skill I did not aquire until after I was 30. And I am a much better parent now (18.y.o and a 3 y.o) some of it is probably pregnancy hormones.too.
Noone is perfect and every mom has had a day or days where they just lose it. And noone can stand here and say they are perfect and have never gotten aggravated and yelled at some point. I’d say just apologise to them after the fact and move on.
U just try to do better and be better everyday none of us are perfect
This book is probably the best book you will read. Also how to talk to children so they listen. Children are learning to understand their feeling and that they matter please be patient with them. Give them options instead of orders.
One word, Effexor
Read this every morning and remember storms don’t last forever. You will feel better and be able to have moments of peace with your littles. Kids are extremely resiliant and it is never too late to be a better mom. The fact that you are trying to improve is already a great accomplishment
Look into gentle parenting. It’s a lot of work but it’s basically just learning how to actually speak and communicate with your children while still setting firm boundaries instead of yelling and having a fear based parenting approach 
. Mindful Parenting is a good group for it
I feel you. Its hard to walk away too when the kids follow you everywhere even to the bathroom. Breath . practice the pause /before reacting take a pause . think to yourself I cannot react in anger. I know you are exhausted but trying to have a little me time after they fall asleep or even in the morning before they wake up can help with patience/ give yourself a recharge . accepting that you are tired and not thinking about how tired you are also helps. above all realize be kind to yourself- as mom’s we all make mistakes but even recognizing the mistakes makes you a better mom. Also apologizing after you make a mistake is good.
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Ok sis here it is if you weren’t so worried about how this affects your children then you’d be a bad mom but because you are so aware and worried this makes you a awesome mommy so give yourself a break don’t be so hard on yourself no one’s a perfect parent your doing great your a good mom
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Things will become easier on your body and mind once your little love is born. I let my daughter change time out to time away. We both took a much needed break for one minute per her age. It stopped tears, yelling and gave us each the time we needed apart. Good luck! If only we were paid our worth!!
Therapy. Know your triggers. Make a plan for when you are triggered. Learn som self regulation skills because small children NEED to co-regulate WITH us. If you can’t get regulated, they never will.
If your in the USA - you should check with local school district to see if they have parents as teachers . This is amazing resource that has parent education that helps with everything from making sure baby is hitting all milestones to how to to parent at different ages and how to discipline without screaming. It’s a learn behavior from your childhood you really have to find people to support you to change that type of parenting
1 st I want you to know you already breaking the cycle bc you are AWARE of your behavior.
2nd you’re pregnant, hormones make us say things we don’t mean. Let’s face it, we cry if the ice cream machine at mcdonalds is broken which isnt anything new 
3rd when you feel yourself getting upset, walk away, try whispering instead or when you do yell, repair afterwards. “Mommy is so sorry I raised my voice. I’m having some big feelings and I had a hard time expressing them. I will work on not doing that. It wasnt your fault”
I could have wrote this post myself 2 years ago before starting therapy. Are you gonna mess up? Yes. Are you gonna wake up everyday and try again? Yes. Bc you dont want to be the mom that yells. Give yourself some grace.
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I will turn to my baby… take a deep deep deeeep breath and firmly speak to her. Does she understand it all? Probably not. But she gets the iist enough to respond in a calmer baby babble voice rather than her siren scream when she’s upset about something. Do I understand her? I’d say half and half but at least we both appreciate the intent and attempt. 
Follow Big Little Feelings! They are so good. I also struggle. My kids are 3 and 3 months… it is constantly a challenge to do “gentle parenting” but I truly believe that it is going to raise kids with less issues than what we have
Sounds like you need a break !
Get therapy and look into gentle parenting. Implement it as much as you can and remember they grow very fast, we don’t get that time back. We are their teachers and our reactions become their reactions. Forgive yourself when you make mistakes but try hard to catch yourself in the future. Truly we are their best friend, their safety, their happiness and it’s our job to break generational curses/trauma to do better for our little ones. They become full grown before we know it
Sorry but I have to: Your mom couldn’t care less, as in Could Not.
If she could care less that means she COULD care Less than she does…
It’s not that hard people…Jesus f*cking Christ
I suggest trying to get some help. You are pregnant, hormonal, tired and it sounds like you are also overwhelmed. You need help, you need some “me” time. It will only get worse once the baby is born. You will be even more sleep deprived and hormonal. Please reach out to family and friends.