Ok so I have a 4 year old and a 6 year old boys. My 6 year old has ADHD ODD sensory processing disorder PTSD and autism. My 4 year old is just a typical 4 year old and I have BPD PTSD severe anxiety (with sensory processing disorder)and major depressive disorder. I love my boys to death and would do anything for them. Now with that being said I am thinking of calling CPS and putting my boys up for adoption. I don’t think I should have become a mother at all. I absolutely cannot stand loud noises or repetitive noises because of my sensory processing disorder. My patience is very short I’m constantly yelling at them because of something. I can barely make ends meet with just my SSI and ADC. I have no friends no family no support system at all. We do not do Christmas or birthdays because I can’t afford them. I know that if they get put up for adoption they will get a lot more than I could ever give them or afford. I also know that I will also lose everything and end up in a homeless shelter because I will lose food stamps and ADC and I won’t be able to afford bills on just my SSI. I think it’s for the best if they could be somewhere where they will be able to have toys and be able to afford to go do things and be where they celebrate holidays and have someone who can cuddle with them and be ok with loud noises. I don’t know if I’m just venting or asking for suggestions or what but thank u for reading