Honestly, 3 years later and you were in high school, to me it sounds like you could be glorifying things in your mind. I don’t think you are a bad person or anything at all, but it’s natural to look back to old times and wish for them to be back. I truly don’t think you’ll be as happy as you think if you go for this, but if you do, PLEASE don’t hold on to your current s/o as a backup option. He sounds like a great guy, but people can only take so much and if you leave him and realize it was a mistake then go back, he will probably not ever open himself up so much to you as he is now. He’s trying to help you get through what you’re going through because he wants YOU. But if you dump on that his feelings will change. Good luck 
I hope you figure it out without pushing away someone who truly cares for you.
Better wake up and love and appreciate who you have.
It’s time to be on your own and find out who you are without a man.
Grow up , you have a kid with a man that loves you, you how your child to keep his family together, and your ex hasn’t tried to get back together ,so you dont have any chances left. What part of no don’t you understand?
O.K. Perhaps I am wrong BUT…I think you should call and talk to your ex and find out once and for all if he has or even can forgive you and (If he’s still single) I Know what I am talking about…my High School sweetheart and I broke up when I was 15 and I hurt him and he was positively not going to forgive me. We met and married the wrong people (me twice) however, 25 years after High School we refound each other on the internet.We reconnected (Got married) and it WORKS and now we are living our happily ever after. But if one of us hadn’t made a move then we both would be lonely (I had been a widow for 6 years and he was going through a nasty divorce)…I guess what I am saying is never knowing is H*ll…Take a step girl and find out.At least that way you’ll know for sure…Yes you might and most probably will lose your current boyfriend by doing this …however Since you can’t say “I Love You” back to him is it really working?? He as well as you deserve better . If your ex will not forgive you and your current man drops you then you might have a chance alone to figure out who you really are and what you really want in a man…If however the stars align right and it works out …you could be living your own happily ever after.
First of all you should learn how to be a Lady. Stop repeating the F word every second word. work on your self and start giving rather than taking only <it is all about you me me me me I wont i want i want, why am i wasting my time now.
This same thing was posted in another group so I am copying my response from that group.
You are over romanticizing your past and your ex…of course he seems better than your current guy because your ex can’t mess anything up when he’s just in your head. Even if you got the ex back somehow, which I don’t suggest even trying to do, I still suspect that you two wouldn’t last. You haven’t learned your lesson from the first time you messed up with the ex…your lesson was to value what you have infront of you. You have a kid with this current guy so I suggest serious counseling and self reflection… love is a choice…you must have felt something for this current man in order to have his child…love is not like the movies but you have to work at it and make the choice every day to love and cherish the partner you have…please do this or you will lose this man like you lost your ex…quit sabotaging your relationships and your happiness and put the ex our of your mind…the grass always seems greener on the other side and the past always seems better than the rough but real present situation. You need to get your own feelings in order and do some deep self reflection because I sense a bit of immaturity in you and a much needed growth needs to happen inwardly.
The past is just that. The past.
You don’t miss him, girl. You miss the idea of him. But truly honestly? Who you’re with now, let him go. Let him find someone who will give him everything you can not and will not; because he deserves it and you’re being selfish. Work on you and leave the past where it belongs. Raise your kid and keep going to therapy, then when you’re in a better place, open back up and get into the dating world.
Call the man. Shit see how he feels about you, get it out your system. All else fails at least you tried.
Don’t call or text your ex again. He doesn’t deserve your mess. It’s unfair for your boyfriend who truly loves you. You need to help yourself and getting back together with your ex is not the way to do it.
Maybe you feel guilty for the way you treated him and that’s why you can’t move on emotionally. Perhaps ppd plays a role. I don’t think it’s past love or a missed chance I think it’s that you are emotionally wrecked at the moment but in any relationship you need to be in a good place first then consider what is best for your child then your partner. If you are already seeking help with depression maybe call ex to do nothing more than apologize and make amends and then let that go. You are so young, in reality that more than likely wasn’t the love of your life just a memory , as you mature you will figure things out best wishes
It seems to me as if you’re just stuck in a rutt you need to try and get out and do more with you current guy, you’re just in a funk don’t throw another great thing away over someone who may not even want you and if your ex is in another relationship doesn’t he deserve the happiness you couldn’t give him???
Get some therapy. You seem to like drama, and have unrealistic expectations. Maybe look up the ex on Facebook & see he is happily married. Focus on your kid & yourself & work with a counselor so you can be enough all by yourself.
If you don’t love the one you’re with let him go…but I’m afraid in 3 years you’ll look back on this relationship the same way. You need to get right with yourself first.