Leave. It’s not going to get better or go away. Dealt with this as well. I left
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If it bothers you that much leave, if you’re not going to leave him get used to it and work on you. Get your confidence back and start checking out other men. It’s not like those girls would give him a chance anyways 
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Im sorry but from the very beginning yall set this boundary together and hes not respected you or your relationship dynamic, its time to go.
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Anyone who thinks porn is cheating shouldn’t be in a relationship. I’m sorry to say but it just isn’t cheating …
However he is definitely a d!rt bag for choosing it over you
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He has an addiction. He needs help. Period.
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Work on yourself or leave the relationship. In my opinion it sounds like you have a lot of issues to work through yourself. I would rather my husband look at porn than cheat on me physically or emotionally.
If you’re not happy you’re just not happy…if feelings are gone the relationship is gone…follow your heart to be happy you don’t need an excuse no matter what it is just change your life so you and your kids will be happy too
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Idc if my man watches porn but the only time it bothers me is when I’m right here willing to do anything you want and say and you know I have a high sex drive but you still watch porn and jack off instead, tht bothers me. I wouldn’t know what to do in your situation, I’d say if you aren’t happy with him, and no longer in love with him then leave, go your separate ways.
don’t just leave, face the issues with couples therapy
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Leave … The night that you give birth he was on porno ??? I would kill him Nd left with my newborn and fuck off… Thats enough for me to end a relationship/marriage. And to be honest i dont even understand why certain man cannot stop doing that. I mean if you want jerk off until you die then stay alone and jerk off. And think how disgusting would be if for example you are not at home and your husband is with your kids and instead to take care about them …he just goes in a different room and watch porno… Thats what you want for your kids ? For yourself??? I dont think so.
People dont change teraphy or not. Maybe he wont even come in teraphy… For them is all normal.
You both need individual and couples counseling.
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I was married to someone exactly like this. And honestly, I left him, because my feelings didn’t matter to him. He was never going to stop… counseling didn’t help, nothing I did helped. It tore me apart. Your love for him will not change anything, he has to be willing to actually try to stop. So it all comes down to him. If he doesn’t want to stop, then Maybe he needs psychological help.
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It would bother me too. I don’t blame you. That really makes a women feel special
Unless your watching together lol but looking at other women is a no no
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Beneath every addiction is a mental health crisis. If he will not seek mental health help for it then you need to start planning to move on.
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I’d of broken his phone by now. 
But since you haven’t and want to fix things, you could go to counciling together. I mean he has issues if he knows it is hurting you but he still does it in front of you and is not hiding it… He must really enjoy hurting you or he’d hide what he is doing.
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He is rude and if he doesn’t care how much this hurts you and is doing it in the way he is, that’s just Gross! , I’m sorry this is happening to you, but if you are falling out of love with him, don’t make yourself miserable living this way. , I would do what ever I could to leave him, but I don’t think it’s healthy to start a new relationship, until you get your confidence and self worth back. , Figure out who you are again. , Heal whatever is in you, that would even draw you to this kind of toxicity 
My husband does this tooo!! It got so bad he was watching it at work where he works w other men and he was literally riding in the work van watching this bs. It’s a serious addiction issue. His dad was addicted to it too. All I can tell you is take away his internet access. I’m talking every single way he can get on it including the game system. I left my husband with out a way and he can’t do it now. I feel better knowing that he has no access but the damage is still done and I still haven’t found a way to fix my hurt. I had extremely clear guidelines for my husband too so I definitely understand you.
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Hurting you is not ok, but making something taboo can make it a lot more compelling, too. What’s the actual harm in looking at porn? Have you ever joined him, shared a film?
It’s an addiction like any other, you both need counseling together and separately. If he is unwilling to admit he has a problem and won’t address it with out help,you have a heartbreaking decision to make. If you do decide to split up,make sure you have a plan. Speak to an attorney, get your money straight, set up child support and get an ex parte so he has to leave the home not you. No reason to disrupt your children further. Best of luck Honey.
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Keep in mind that if he is watching the hetero type of pornography he may be fulfilling a different fantacy than you being female can provide, but still its a violation if you agreed from the onset of your relationship
The only way to get someone to stop is by helping them understand why it’s wrong. And then they make their choice.
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If you’re not ok with your partner looking at porn then her should be respecting you period and not doing it.
The rest however is on you. You can’t expect your husband to fulfil all of your emotional needs. You have to pour into your own cup as well. I have low self esteem because of childhood trauma and abuse and ex partners abuse. I only became happy when I started to do the shadow work to let go of those unhealthy toxic ideas I was holding onto. Also some days I still feel awful. But you’re only going to feel better when you learn to love and value yourself.
He has an addiction. Like any addiction, there is help for both of you. Google local SA(Sexaholics anonymous) and SANON meetings. My SANON group helped me through some very tough times!
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He’s sick. He is an addict and without legitimate therapy he’ll never get better. However sounds like the love isn’t there for you anymore, (which is so understandable). I think you should leave, but then insist he goes to therapy. If you’re going to co parent and if you have children you do not want them exposed to all of this. If you go through the court, you can address this and the judge (I believe can insist he goes to therapy)
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That’s perverted sorry … That sh*t is not normal 🤷 My ex husband was EASILY one of the BIGGEST Womanizers around 5 babies mom’s 8 kids altogether he ALWAYS had two or 3 women on the back burner. HOWEVER he wasn’t just jacking off to any and everything let alone the bikini review section of JCP online. Like that doesn’t strike you as WEIRD predatory? anything? I’d leave… Dude’s off… My friends ex roommate’s boyfriend did shit just exactly like this to until one day he got busted trying to get pictures of his girlfriend’s little sister (14) in the bathroom shower. I’m disturbed that sooooo many women on here have had this experience and don’t seem to quite grasp that this guy is exhibiting some seriously disturbing behavior patterns. There’s Womanizers and there’s Predators… There’s a difference.
I wouldn’t mind my husband watching porn once in a while cuz I will admit I personally love watching porn as well. But instantly go look at other women in their bikinis just after you tried your own new bikinis is weird and instantly go look at other women in the same bras that you have bought and tried on is weird as well. That hurts of course no questions about that. I think he is severely addicted to porn and needs to see therapies for that or he is just not interested in you anymore. Try therapies and see how that goes. I would I feel the same way as you do.
There is help out there but he has to want it. Look up Fight the new drug.
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Seems like this is more about you than him.
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First of all I’m going to start with my story. I’m 40 years old. I started putting on weight when I was in 4th grade. I spent all of my middle school years and high school years being made fun of for being the fat kid. I had some pretty damaging emotional problems going into relationships to start with because of this fact. I’ve never been confident about my body and I made it known in the way I dress, the way I carry myself and the way I acted. When I went off to college and I got involved with my very first SERIOUS relationship I was devastated to find out that instead of coming to me in the middle of the night he would slip off and masturbate to porn. This made me feel like less of a person. Like I wasn’t good enough for him. It’s not that we didn’t have sex, because we did, and on a regular basis. I would constantly tell him that it hurt that he would turn to such “vulgar” and “fakeness” when I was right there for him to ravish how he wanted but he would still find his way back to porn. We broke up and shortly after I got pregnant by a one night stand. I didn’t have another serious relationship until my son was almost 4 years old. I found a guy I moved myself and my son to another state for only to start encountering the exact same issue (different topics in porn but the same concept.) I complained and complained until 6 months later he told me he was cheating on me from someone from work and kicked me out. I ended up calling my family to drive 10 hours to come pick my sorry ass up. I sullenly went on with my life and wasn’t in another relationship for 8 more years with my NOW husband. During that 8 years I started working on myself. I started losing weight, I sent flowers to myself, I started a SELF-LOVE routine that I followed religiously. I STILL do those self-love things. I’ll send myself flowers with a love note from myself just because I can. I’ll treat myself to a decedent dessert and tell myself how beautiful I am everyday when I look in the mirror to get dressed for work. I’ve got days now where I look it up myself and hand him his phone and send him on his way. I’m not worried that he’s doing it because they are prettier. I’m 40 and I’ve had a hysterectomy so my sex drive is at a stand still (it will happen, ladies, trust me, it will happen) and sometimes my directing him to the porn and for him to masterbate is easier than trying to pretend. I’ve very much learned that it’s not about the women it’s simply that men have to have a visual sometimes and sometimes we aren’t what they want to visualize. It took me 20 years to realize it’s not ME but the fact that some men just have to have it to look at. I’m glad it’s there as a reprieve for me and I know not all women will feel the same (yet, I’m telling you wait until you’ve had a hysterectomy or are going through menopause). DO NOT MAKE THIS ABOUT PORN. It’s not about porn it’s about the fact that you have serious body issues that YOU need to fix NOT your husband. YOU need counseling and if your husband will go with you even better. But YOU need to start feeling good about YOUR own body. Don’t criticize a man for being a man and doing what a man does. He was that way BEFORE you married him and you can’t expect him to change just because he married YOU. This is about YOU not him.
… maybe you need to look at the Chippendales and ooh and ah over them… what’s good for the goose is good for the gander!
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Time for you to get a boudoir girl. Maybe post your bikini pics just to get other guys reactions. How about ask him to make a porn video of you guys lol I know sounds cheap but if ya can’t beat em join em
With out help it won’t get better. Even with help it might never get better. My husband and I said the same thing about porn is cheating. Have dealt with it for 14 years. From dealing with the same for this long I have begun feeling the same. Also the addiction took its hold and he took it a step up. I’m in the same boat as you. I truly love him, but have since been questions if I’m still in love with him. I wish I would have left the first time or one of the other million times. I didn’t and now pay the price with my happiness. I don’t think my husband will change and he did talk to a therapist. But with in a couple months was back at it. Also your hubbies addiction sounds even worse then mine. If he won’t get help you really should think long and hard about your life. I know this is Anonymous but feel free to message me.
Go honey. Before he wastes your whole life for you. It won’t change. He cares more for his addiction than he does for you.
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I think it may be time to split. You could try therapy and maybe sex therapy. It sounds like this may be a kink for him but we aren’t qualified to know that. I also think you should get therapy too Bc you are a beautiful person and I want you to see that in yourself!
I normally advocate that what he does with his body isn’t your place to control but this time it feels like it’s controlling you and your ability to function Bc you can’t even buy any clothing without him using it as material. It’s most likely that you guys arent compatible anymore and may be better as coparents. That’s ok Bc in the end everyone needs to be in a healthy place.
Looking for affirmation from people who can’t find it to give will eat you up. You are enough just the way you are
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You said when you first got together it’s considered cheating so you created a boundary that was mutually accepted and he doesn’t respect you enough to not cross that. I know addictions personally very well and they always cost you more than there worth he’s choosing his addictions over your marriage not to say he doesn’t love you but he’s got a funny way of showing it by disrespecting the things yourve asked him. but I truly believe that its lust of the heart otherwise you’d be enough you just keep trying to find excuses for him.and given the opportunity knowing you wouldn’t find out he would commit his addiction in real life because he’s not loyal, the flesh is weak and so is he.
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You’ve communicated the impact that his actions have on you. The fact that he continues to make the same choices shows that he either has no respect for you and your marriage, has an addiction, or more likely, both. Chances are good he isn’t going to make any lasting changes so you need to determine just how much you can handle and if your happiness is worth that.
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He’s not going to change unfortunately
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The fact that he is sexualizing people/contexts that are not meant to be sexualized is not good in terms of where he stands in his addiction. If I were in your shoes I would help him register with an addiction center or psychiatrist. They can assist him in overcoming this if it’s what he wants. If he refuses to get help, I would leave. You deserve the loyalty and respect that you give.
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I really feel for you in your situation. I have no advice sorry on your situation other than your man is being very foolish to ignore how you feel… Hugs. X
Just leave. My ex husband was this way, it isn’t worth the pain. Just go someone will only look at you.
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I wanted to throw up when you said he was getting off to porn when you got home from the hospital after giving birth. Disgusting 
This guy knows what it’s doing to you. I would say share with him, but his addiction will more than likely come before your feelings and I could 100% see him gaslight you for them.