So I’ve had my 3rd child 6 months ago. For the past few months I’ve been on a rollercoaster of emotions. I don’t enjoy the things in my life like I used to. I used to always have a smile on my face, now I have to force one. I’m constantly thinking negative thoughts about myself and my marriage. I’m always thinking my husband is cheating or going to leave me (with no proof). He works during the day and always comes home. Takes good care of me and the kids. Sure we have our problems but overall he is a good guy. I find myself always questioning him and its creating such problems. I can’t shake the negative thoughts. While he goes to work I find myself getting upset with the kids very easily and even have thoughts that they’d be better off without me. Even though I would never abandon them I just feel like my negative thinking and being so unhappy all the time is making them miserable. I try my best and not everyday is bad. But more so then not I am just a mental wreck. In my head all day imagining the worst of everything. At the end of the day I just cry because I feel like I didnt give my kids enough love or attention. I promise myself tomorrow will be different, then I’m okay for a little while then I spiral back into negative feelings and thoughts.I feel so lucky and blessed to have my kids and a good husband but yet I’m just so miserable. I dont shower for days at a time. I’ve just given up on myself. I think I’m dealing with some postpartum depression and anxiety. I am going to call my doctor in the morning to see if that’s what it is. But I’m just looking for any other mommas who’s gone through this. I just feel so alone. And I need help and advice. I have every reason to be happy and yet I’m so depressed. I absolutely hate this. Please no bashing me. I already feel so lost and alone. And I am a stay at home mom. So I dont get much adult interaction.
I wish I knew what to say, but i know how it feels. Im so proud of you for stqying so strong for them all xo
Op you can message me if you’d like someone to talk too . 
I swear I was just struggling w/ the exact same thing, though I’m only a mom of 1 it hasn’t been easy but it’s best to talk to your husband, tell him about what’s been going on in your head. Mine has helped me through everything. Also if possible take some time to yourself, find yourself again & most importantly, begin learning to LOVE yourself 
you’re not alone
Check your thyroid gland, there could well be a physical problem causing it.
I’m right there with you mama. It’s hard but it will get better. I’ve struggled with depression since I had my oldest 12 years ago. Definitely call your doctor and make an appointment to get on antidepressants. I’ve been on them since my oldest was 5. I’ve been on 5 different ones now and I really like the one I’m on now. It takes time to figure out what works. Keep close with your doctor and let them know how you’re feeling. Keep your chin up mama I promise it gets better. And don’t be hard on yourself about how you’re feeling because it’s not your fault. Like my mom told me, if your body can get sick so can your brain. Good luck mama, sending well wishes your way.
So glad you’re contacting your dr! You are not alone and you deserve to feel & be happy. Sounds like you could use some time to pamper yourself 
then a date night with your hubby
PPD. These thoughts seem real but they aren’t. I’ve went through it and it was the hardest thing I’ve ever dealt with
Maybe you could use some medical help for a bit to help you get a handle on your feelings. I had to do it. Talk to someone before it gets worse. Good luck to you.
Contacting your doctor is an excellent step! Sounds like post partum depression or it could just be depression, either way, talking to a mental health professional will most likely help. Check with your hospital too- sometimes they have mom support groups etc. it would be good to link up with other moms and be less isolated- that could really play tricks in your mind. Wishing you the best!- you are doing your best, and you are on the right track! Even if your doctor doesn’t think anything is wrong, trust your instincts and get help from a therapist 
Could be PPD as well as SAHM isolation.
As a mom of 3 all very close in age I can relate when my children were babies I was a stay at home mom so my hubby always had to work and pick up extra shifts and whatever else he could do to make a few extra dollars but since I was in the house with 3 babies all day every day I somewhat lost touch with myself I had no friends or me time but to make a long story short once I finally put the babies in daycare and found a job I started to feel a little better but then my life was work, housework, and babies so I started doing small things for myself occasionally (haircut, nails, tanning, just whatever) and the occasional date night and I found myself feeling better and better every day
I didn’t have PPD but I do have a bipolar disorder and when I had my lows that’s exactly what I would feel like. I would have no joy, I would be sarcastic and mean with my comments to my husband, I wouldn’t shower and sometimes I couldn’t even manage the motivation to brush my hair. Dishes would pile up, the house would go unvacuumed, toys everywhere. Then I would have a manic episode and feel like wonder woman for a day or two. Shit would get done, I’d take care of myself, dinner was made when my husband got home. I was pretty well managed after I had my first, but after I had my second the dose of my medications we’re no longer working so they had to be adjusted. Don’t be afraid to tell your doctor everything you’ve been feeling. They will be able to lead you in the right direction in terms of getting help for yourself. If you get put on medication, just don’t expect an overnight fix. Most depression medications take up to 2 weeks or more to build up in your system, before you see and feel a change. You might even have to try more than one medication as what may work for one person, may not work for another. Even though I don’t know you, just know that I’m so proud of you for realizing that this isn’t your normal and seeking out help. You’ve got this mama! Keep pushing forward!!
PPD happens within a few wks after one has the baby, And last about 10-11 months afterwards, It doesn’t start 6 months later. yes something is going on & YES this should be told to her DR. Yes there are support group for PPD at hospitals/ clinics But this isn’t PPD, But would it hurt since she just had a baby 6 months ago to go to these meetings….no. Maybe other women are having the same feelings & don’t know why. Maybe the fact of just going out & meeting with other women is all that she needs…hopefully. Something is going on that needs to be check & checked NOW
Sounds like post-partum depression. Check with your doctor.
Ive suffered depression and anxiety my whole life. I have two little ones and got post partum psychosis after my youngest. Sounds like depression definitly and your doctor will most likely agree. I’ve said almost the same exact words you wrote. An anti depressant maybe a moood stabslizer but most important therapy, just to talk, will help tremendously!!! I hope you feel better. Being stay at home with the kids is no easy job. Lots of time to think, which is my biggest enemy!!! Start your journeling if you have a chance. Or coloring to help relax and distract your mind on some of that down time when you would normally sit there and think. Hang in there girl everythings going to be okay. But please reach out to me or anyone if your thoughts go dark and scary! Overthinking and being depressed is one thing but having suicidal ideation or being suicidal is no joke. As much as I didnt want to afyer I had my son o had to go to the hospital. It was scary and I didnt want people to think i didnt love my kids. But you have to take care of you first in order to take care of them. Good luck mama!
I suffered from PPD after I had my second child, my son. I honestly think wgatvtriggered my PPD was that I was a SAHM to 2 kids. it was overwhelming for me. I felt like I needed to make sure everything was perfect, etc. I also had bad thoughts about myself. my husband at the time was great. he worked to provide for us, never treated me bad, etc. I was just stressed. we has one vehicle so I couldn’t get out the house, EVER. I had to wait until he got home. sometimes thatvwasnt until 7 or 8 pm so I wouldn’t go anywhere. I was a mess. I just know that after that episode, if I felt extremely overwhelmed or stressed as a sahm, I would have those “feelings” again and I could feel them coming back. all I can say is tell your doctor everything. I did and they prescribed me antidepressants and anxiety pills. they worked wonders! it took about 2 weeks to kick in but I finally was happy. I eventually was ok within a few months so I stopped taking them.
Yes! I went through this too. Like exactly the same thing except with the first baby. Seek counseling. Take showers. See if there’s any other moms in your area that might want to do get together every now and then so the kids can play and you can talk with an adult. It’s exhausting to spend all of your time with kids even when you love them. You’re not alone
Depression! Been there, done that!! Please TRY to ignore your negative thoughts and get help right away! Don’t act on your negative thoughts. Tell the doc exactly what you told us and don’t sugar coat it and don’t let them shine you on. Please get help ASAP! I bet you can be happy again!!!
I wanted to ask a question , did you happen to get your tubes tied or anything after you had the last baby. Because that can put you in premature premenopause. And that will mimic alot of what you are feeling. I hope this question gets to you. Seek out holistic ways to bring your spirits back up. Along with following up with your doc.
Pretty familiar with that feeling 
hope your able to get the help and support you need!
Hey I don’t know you and I hope the best for you. But you do need to call your doctor and please make an appointment to see him or her. There is nothing to be ashamed of. This happens to a lot of women. But there is help for you. I wish you the best and good luck.
Honey sounds like hormone imbalance. Give your doc a call to make an appt. It’s very normal be on this roller coaster, your not alone
If you have a church family TURN to them and always turn to God. HE has seen me through so many hard days, and HE never leaves nor FORSAKES us!
You have ppd honey you go get something for it and enjou you’re precious babies
You have PPD hun. I had it too it was bad so bad it almost ended my relationship with my now husband when we we’re just starting out. Get on some meds you will feel better soon. Also see if your doctor can give you a therapist that deals with postpartum depression. Might need to talk to somebody also. Sit down and talk with your husband let him know how you’re feeling. But tell him it’s nothing that he did wrong it’s just your brain switch turn something on after having the baby that shouldn’t be on. the key to keeping him around while you were in this stage of your life is communication. Ask him if you can get a couple of hours by yourself go for a walk go for a drive go out with a friend. You need some me time.
(((Hugs))) been there. Theres lots of good advice in the comments I don’t need to repeat them. But…
(((Hugs)))
Tell your doctor everything…
Hang in there. Talk to a professional. I have a psychologist for other reasons and it really helps. Your pediatric Dr. May be able to advise or refer you.
Need hormone supplements if tubes were tied. Anti-depressant meds are a life saver. Just from my experience. Appt with your doctor soon please…it doesn’t pass.
Message me if you need to . Please . I know exactly what you are going through…
Awww sweetheart. What ur feeling is completly normal. It sounds like postpartum deppression and calling ur DR is a good plan. Ur not alone in this situation. Theres alot of other mothers who are going thru and have been thru the same thing. I personally sufferred this sort of deppression after i had both my children. It could be me who wrote this post. Its exactly how i felt. Allow urself 2 cry and let the emotions come. Remember, nothing last forever. Weather its happiness or sadness. Do u have someone around except ur husband since he is working all day that can help u with the kids sometimes? Then u can have a little time for urself. Maybe take a nap, go out n eat in peace, go for a walk. Or just do something that u normally appreciate doing. Like before u had kids? Stay strong sweety. Better days are on the way! Also show ur husband this post. Let him know how u feel. Don’t be embaressed. Its something natural. He will understand u n support u more I been thru exactly what ur going thru. It will not kill u, only make u and build u. U are a amazing mother n ur children need u so make sure u take care of ur self also!Ur important U can massage me anytime if u like. Lots of Love