This man playing PS4? Sounds like he hasn’t matured. My god he has to be in his forties! Most men mature by 28 years of age. Praying for you and your family
Girl, get your shit n get out of there. Live the kids there,make him responsible n show the sob how hard it is to care for a family n been cussed for nothing. Go n show him what he has lost.
PS, don’t fuck with guys, give it a break. You don’t need a guy, you need to get it together. Good luck 
Now… Now is the time to leave… I stayed too… Scared of starting over. But I made it and the kids and I are great! I work nocs because it’s just me but it works…
You have lived with an abusive man this whole time. Know that you deserve a life without this abuse. Contact your local womens shelter and seek counceling for yourself to gelp you to gain the confidences you need to build the life you and your children deserve.
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Your kids are telling you … listen to them
I know it is very difficult to leave, so many fears. I was in the same situation and once you do leave it takes a good year or two to move on. But my life has been much better now. I do always feel guilty about my kids but life goes on. It will not get better until you do something. I did learn from my experience that I am much stronger then I thought and I can cope with what life deals me.
Forgive yourself and try to move on, if not for you, do it for your children. They are the most important at this time, they are miserable because of you and hubby hating each other. Do it, you will be happier in the long run. Plain and easier than you think.
Your post sounds a lot like my marriage, except I can’t prove he cheated. I call him Jeckyl and Hyde all the time. I am so sorry you are going through this, I personally know how draining it feels. Have you tried counseling?
You have to do the groundwork. Quietly. When you go have somewhere to go to. Not another’s house but your own place if you can. Organise your finances, make sure you have your own account, that the car is in your name ect. It will help with the fear and build your confidence up especially in regards to making the decision to leave. Involve your kids to because this will be their new reality to. They have seen everything go down anyway so no point in hiding it. Good luck.
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you stay because you want to if you wanted to leave you would look to what you contribute to the misery in your life only you can change it if it aint gotten any better in all the years you ve been married it aint gonna i am 73 was in an abusive marriage for 12 years got out only after someone said this very same thing to me you can leave anytime you want the comment befor me makes a lot of sense if you can do those things it would be easier but if you cant you can still leave
Coming from a kid’s perspective that was telling your parents to get a divorce… get the divorce! Your kids aren’t blind, they can see that you aren’t happy and it’s a toxic relationship. If you stay, you’re just teaching them that it’s ok to be treated this way and you need to just stick around just because you’re married and have kids. My mom always said she never divorced my dad because she didn’t want to have two broken families. I have 2 sisters who have a different dad then me and my brother, my mom feels horrible that they grew up in a split family so she stayed with my dad just because she didn’t want my brother and me to have a split family. We could see she was MISERABLE and told her to get a divorce.
Your happiness and well being is so much more important to your children then you two staying together.
Your husband sounds incredibly toxic, and you don’t deserve that. You need to put yourself first for once!!!
I think if you’ve both cheated it’s literally showing you both that neither person wants to be with the other. You and him can still be parents even though you aren’t together x
I would suggest leaving but also getting counseling so you don’t get into a similar relationship!
I think you already have your answer but want affirmation from complete strangers. I would have been out of that relationship a looong time ago! Stop second guessing yourself! Life’s too short to be this unhappy!
It’s time to get out now I was in the same situation and I wasn’t putting my 10 yr old Son through this he is much happier now Graduating and going into the Army to start his own Adventures
Honey— Kick HIS you know what out! Why should you leave.
Your marriage sounds exactly like my 1st! Mine cheated with anyone…if it moved he did it.
That is NOT a lie. (No I never cheated myself…he made sure of that by moving me and kids to middle of nowhere and not knowing how to drive) he never gave me money …never…i asked him for 20 one day and he said he couldn’t afford it…he made decent money.
When I finally got my drivers license…he gave me so much for groceries and gas for the car…it gets worse…we ended up always demanding a divorce…never did…until the day we really got into it…and I just suddenly stopped and it was weird…it was like I was a different person…i whispered loudly “why don’t you just die” seriously.
The scary part was we both knew I meant it…he left…came in late…same thing…divorce…i hated that man…i only just admitted it to myself when I actually wished him dead. So I told him that this time we are getting divorced because I was sick of living the life he forced on me. So…divorce…i do take the kids because I didn’t trust him. He paid no child support.
So listen…that marriage almost killed me…and I almost killed him!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! DO NOT STAY! I promise you if you stay it will get worse…and you will come close to breaking…don’t do that to yourself…PLEASE!
I am guessing your kids are older. Sounds like they support you…my kids told me it was about time I divorced their dad!
So…two girls headed off to college a year apart…son got out of high school and now is a heavy equipment worker…i went back to school…worked part time jobs …and then 2 years after the divorce I met my 2nd husband…6 years later we got married…it was like a whole new world…he really was my knight in shining armor…
So GET OUT! RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN…AS FAR AS YOU CAN…AND DO NOT LOOK BACK! There will be a new life for you that will make the world shiny and new for you again. Please please please…for your sake and your kids…just go! You can pm me if you need to talk…bless your heart sweetie…
An you support yourself? If so, tell him he needs to leave not you. Unless you want to move somewhere that makes you happy. You don’t have to get a divorce but I think you deserve better and you need some you time away from him. It does not include another man but perhaps just find what makes you happy.
When you have to ask yourself that question… it’s time to move on .
It’s like I read my life story just now…
because you love him and hope he will change back to what you had. but at this point of time, it is over and sounds like ti has for sometime, and he is kidding you that he is there for the kids. but he is not. it is in my opinion, you can take it or leave it, it is up to you, your life and family, to divorce and move on.
Just cause you have kids together, doesn’t mean you have to be together. People grow apart and that’s okay. You stay hoping for change, holding onto what you guys use to be. We all do it. Don’t feel bad. You already know the answer to your question. Do the right thing and take care of yourself and your children. You’ll be happier. The relief alone will bring out a new you. 
Best of luck hun
So so sad. I do not believe God intends us live that way.
Find a game you can play together , get into a good church, try to spice things up, while he’s playing his game come out in some sexy lingerie. Show him you’re interested instead of nagging about the game.
You are teaching your kids what marriage is supposed to look like.
YOU need to make a decision; what is best for you and the kids? File for a Divorce, force him out of the home, demand Child Support and move on. I only say this because to most women - just having him there is comfort. With him gone - then you’re on your own. Do this for the kids - KICK his lazy butt out!
I think you both should call it quits
Idk. Why do you stay?
You stay because it’s what you are use to. No matter how uncomfortable it is it is still your comfort zone. You know exactly what you are going to get compared to the unknown if you leave and that scares you worse than him being a miserable douche.
You deserve happiness. And asking for little things like holding hands and some time spent together does not make you high maintenance. Your kids are saying it’s time to go. You can find real happiness. It sounds like your relationship is familiar and making the leap to leave is scaring you away from it. You are strong. You can do hard things. I was there and I know it is the hardest decision ever. Sending love and strength to you.
When you have to ask that question it’s a good indicator… just from reading the first part, my advice is walk. Yall are long over and you’re letting eat up your life and the life of your children. If your kids can tell you there’s a problem, you gotta go ASAP. No matter what’s happened in the past, you’re clearly still living in the shadows of your past mistakes. Do you really want to live the rest of your life that way with a man that doesn’t even want to be in the same room? Life it too short to live like that and each of you deserve happiness, you’re clearly not happy at all together. Bail out and heal up.