Went through this. Making this jump won’t be easy. Sounds like you haven’t called the cops, or reported the abuse either. If it is as bad as I know it can get, you’re not gonna just be able to leave… You’ll need to disappear. He has rights as a father, and going the legal way, you’re tethered to this man FOREVER! The abuse doesn’t stop just because you leave. Before you make that leap, have ALL your ducks in a row. Be hasty… He knows you!
You can make it…you can get help with everything from Healthcare to rent to utilities to childcare. Go to counseling, make yourself a better person which will turn into a better mom. Show your kids how to be strong. My daughter, who is 27 now, told me one day she watched me get stronger when I finally stood up and walked out. She told me she is proud of me…and she was only 15. My boys were 6 and 8…they are 19 and 17…and happier than they ever were. YOU CAN DO THIS!!
Where are you located at
Running don’t look back!!!
What are you waiting for?
Leave ASAP that’s a pure narcissist
Leave while you still can!
Contact DV CONNECT asap
Praying 
for you and your children