If he works from home it sounds to me like he should be able to do more. Why can’t he do at least a load of laundry each day or some straightening up of the house during a break from his work. I am sometimes able to work from home and love it when I can cause I’m able to get things done around the house. He sounds lazy and controlling.
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There’s nothing wrong with you, he is the problem. He sounds like a narcissist that’s constantly gas lighting you. If you do it all as far as you, the children and the house goes, why are you tolerating him treating you that way? He doesn’t have to hit you to abuse you and what he’s doing is mental abuse. Stop tolerating it. Tell him get off his lazy tail and do some housework while you’re at work.
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Go get you and your boys an apartment
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Honey, you do EVERYTHING and you damn well know it.
He may not hit you but this is abusive the way hes acting towards you.
This is so horrible.
Id be planning my leave in silence and putting money away and setting up an escape plan
Hes VERY controlling.
You need to see this for what it is and get a plan together.
Then when u go to file for divorce, you file for full custody too.
Make sure you start recording him going off on you.
Save msgs, save everything and document every time and date he says anything to you.
Take it all to court
And don’t tell him ANYTHING.
Please dont mention your plans to him.
Do it all in silence.
Youre doing it alone anyway. And i know it’ll still be the same amount of work without him, but itll be easier without the verbal and emotional abuse hes putting you thru.
You sound like you’ll be just fine with your kids alone.
Please dont let this go further. Abuse gets worse, not better
He may not have hit you, but it doesnt mean he wont
Stop wasting all your time typing all this crap to your FB readers…Even though it probably felt good to get it out…Reality Check…none of us here can give you any realistic help…convince your other half to get real pro marriage counseling together…get you both a clearer awareness of Whats Up both ways…otherwise you continue as is…miserable…risking your health and well being or punt…game plan a move out…friends, relatives or your own place and watch those three males either sink or swin on their own…
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You are a badass mother!!! Every time he comes at you and starts knit picking you or yelling at you for doing stuff wrong or not enough, put a “mirror” up between you. Everything he’s saying has nothing to do with you and everything to do with himself. Good luck mama
Abuse is not just slapping, punching, and hitting…there are so many other forms. Sounds like he is gaslighting you and breaking you down so you don’t feel good about yourself. Motherhood is hard and doing it all while working full time is not easy for any mom. He should be your partner in all this, not your worst critic!
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Tell him to grow up, but for you…. You are not June Clever, or Betty Crocker, It’s ok for things to be messy, it’s ok no one is perfect and you can not be perfect, I am going to tell you your children would rather have time with you, then a clean room. Why don’t you call in a sick day take your kids to school and go enjoy your self, just take time to chill. Don’t tell your husband you are taking a day to your self, just go and breathe.
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I’m to hot headed for this if someone started screaming in my face to the point their face got red… Whoo weee he better start re-evaluating his life choices real quick. I’m not a doormat I’m a woman, a mother I will be treated with respect I am worthy of love and I am beautiful. Tell that to yourself in the mirror till you believe it and watch the change it brings you.
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Leave! You can do all things you need to by yourself! The kids don’t need to see him belittling you.
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Well, you’re Mom, so taking care of the kids comes along with that 
as far as your SO, why are you sitting there and taking it? Either do something about or learn to live with it. Facebook can’t give you validation.
You are in an emotionally abusive relationship as long as you remain in it, or he continues to abuse you, you will never be able to get clarity and always feel that nothing you do is good enough. Maybe marriage counseling could help but if he is unwilling to do it then you should really consider moving on.
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Divorces are not cheap however you may need one to have peace in your heart and soul where love peace and joy should always be.
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Your husband is an asshole
Give him a list of literally everything you do and get him to take over that and see how he likes it.
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Stop doing for him and he will see what you do he will have to do for himself
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This is abuse. Plan and simple. And I think you know that, and also what you should do. Maybe there is some denial and acceptance that you need to worked through, but this is not a problem with you. It’s a problem with him. I have been in your shoes. After 14 years I walked away and never looked back. Best decision I ever made. I really hope you seek out any available resources for yourself and boys. They shouldn’t learn that this is a healthy relationship and how you treat your S/O or anyone for that matter. Remember your value. You are worth it.
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He’s a douche canoe!!!
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Leave, it’s not worth it. You’re already doing everything a single mother does. Trust me when he is gone and the expectation is gone it’s a relief. You are able to focus on you and the kids better. He hasn’t been physically abusing you but it is emotional abuse. When you leave and he isn’t there anymore you will have peace. Or if you want to stay make him try marriage counseling and take some anger management classes. If he is actually willing. But if he isn’t then maybe you see how he values the marriage
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Wow sounds like my marriage. We went through 2 1/2 years of marriage counseling and according to then counselor my husband just didn’t get it. Didn’t want to or just didn’t get it. He wasn’t sure. After 11 years enough was enough. Started over with my boys. Best thing I ever did. Both Eagle Scouts. One holds many college including masters in chemistry and other is graduating law school in May. I am happy and so are they. Been there done that decided I was a great mom and was time or a change for the better. No one deserves to be put down.
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Hey beautiful… It’s team work to make the Dream work! You are enough in the lord eyes. Start talking to your family and friends if you can. Play dates or sports to get away and evaluate your situation. Write it All down but keep it to yourself and hidden. Your boys are your top priority! I’m sorry your going through this. He’s possibly narcissistic and manipulate maybe even a psychopath. This is serious. Your mental health is Everything. voice Record or record him acting like this but DONT LET HIM KNOW! You can’t change a person unless they want to. I’m sorry your going through this! Don’t let him isolate you. Start going to church or something to get out with your boys. Go with your gut feeling… you got this! Sending prayers your way 
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Your husband is trying to make you seem inferior to him. His your,problem. Not anything else.
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Its not your job to live up to his expectations of what you should be as a mother. If you are doing the best you can and that’s not good enough for him anymore you should realize your best can still be good enough for you and your kids. If he’s bringing you down instead of lifting you up, it’s time to off load some of that extra weight and stress. I would ask him to be real with you about where he sees your marriage heading and if he wants to work with you to do better. You need to be ready for the answer either way it goes though.
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A third of the way through it’s clear he’s projecting how he feel about himself and saying his flaws
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Emotional 
abuse:clap:is:clap:still:clap:abuse:clap: You deserve better, and so do your boys
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You are in an abusive relationship I don’t know if you realize this. My Heart hurts for you right now it was hard for me to read your post.
What ever you do do NOT quit your job and be a stay at home mom, it will not give you more time to get stuff done it will not give you more time for anything except for stress. Literally will turn into a living hell. 
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Tell him to involved at home. Change roles, let him see everything you have been doing!
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This is how my first husband acted. Thankfully he left me for another woman and my second husband is appreciative of everything. You are an abused spouse. Draw a line in the sand or kick him to the curb.
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Tell HIM to leave, if he’s so unhappy. You are doing more than your share. Maybe he needs a job outside the home. That isolation can cause anger and depression. If he won’t go to counseling, tell him to leave.
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You need to write a big list of all your daily tasks. And then have him also write what he thinks his daily tasks are. And then you need to delegate them so you are not carrying the brunt of the work. This is completely unfair and he doesnt realize how much work you are actually doing. Id have him pick a few to do every day and shee what he says then.
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Sounds like my first husband whatever I did wasn’t good enough he always come home bitching about this that or the other if there was one thing wrong he would bring that up if I tried I’d work my butt off for all day around the house taking care of the kids doing whatever needed to be done and he’d come in find something to b**** about just to get a argument started and I got tired of it after 14 years left and divorced and remarried a much better man it never changes if a man wants to find something to b**** about my opinion
Look, the way I got my husband to realize how much I did was by stopping what I did. Just go to work, let the chores pile up even if it bothers you. Make a list of what he says you don’t do, and then quit doing it. He’ll figure it out, he’ll realize how much you do.
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Don’t stop working, you need to be independent. He is a narcissist and is trying to beat you down
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Emotional abuse through and through. You are enough, always have been enough. And always will be enough. He’s ground you down so much you are questioning yourself on everything. Your boys need you - YOU. And you deserve to be happy and to be able to be yourself 120% of the time. Wherever you go from here, I wish you peace, strength, and freedom to feel you can be you, all The time. And to realise that you are enough! 
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Damn a whole book!!! Baby flip the script on him! Snap off on him and then throw of stuff at him( to finish him off)lol ……Gaslighting at it’s best
He’s an ass. Get counseling. You are not being heard at all. You are unhappy. He could be having an affair. You should file for divorce if hes not going to behave better. You sound like a wonderful woman and aren’t appreciated. Stay strong; know your worth.
Leave the kids with him for a weekend. Tell him u need to recharge your batteries. Let’s see how he handles all of the chores and take care of kids while your gone. Or just tell him to leave since u do everything anyway. Verbal abuse is still abuse. Oh and he works from home so I’m sure there are some times during the day where he can help out with chores
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He’s emotionally and verbally abusing you. Please get out
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Kick him out go for child support
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Hell no, lose the guy and you’ll be more at peace. You’re doing everything anyways, why have someone around who just berates you and causes unnecessary stress. No need to try and change his perception, if he can’t see all that you do and instead yells, talks down on you, and insults you then I say leave and find happiness and peace without some dictator trying to mind F*ck you. If you don’t particularly want to leave him (I would, I’ve tried saving a marriage like this before, they may try for a week so you don’t leave initially but you can’t make someone change) then I’d suggest some therapy because it sounds more like he’s projecting his failures onto you. Instead of looking within himself, it’s easier to blame you for all of his shortcomings. If he doesn’t want to do therapy then definitely leave though. You can’t change someone who doesn’t want to change or acknowledge what they’re doing and if he won’t even attempt therapy or even couples counseling, then just leave. Don’t waste more of your life trying to make a square peg fit into a round hole.
Some people just don’t know when they got it good. He can’t see the forest for the trees. You already do so much, you are already holding the fort down without even knowing it if he were to disappear the only thing that would be missing would be the criticism. I live alone and yes it’s lonely and it took a lot to get where I’m at now, but I don’t think I miss a day thanking God that I don’t have to hear someone running me down everyday. You are worthy and you got everything it takes to make your life work for you and your children.“you is smart, you is kind, and you is important”. A line from the movie “The Help”.
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First you will never chance his perception of you no matter what you do . because that is the type of person he is so stop trying to do that . second who cares if there is dishs in the sink, toys all over ,floors need cleaned play with the kids they are only little once ,if the dishes bug him to bad he can do them …to make your mornings easier make a list that needs to put in school bags ,in the evening put items in bag and put a check mark next to it this way at a glance you know …stop trying so hard to please everyone including hubby .you have to make yourself happy mental / physically
Tolerate you? I would think you tolerate him. You seem like you are doing every little thing you possibly can and more. If he wants a spotless, clean house, he has two hands that worked just fine and he seems like he’s home more than you. Never, and I mean never, does your partner have the right to scream at you and tell you that you are not enough. I see that you said something about your weight, which makes me think he has said more about you than just a clean house. This doesn’t seem like a person that does anything for you, that isn’t trying, that isn’t working to get better for you. You and your boys deserve someone that will treat you right. They will pick up on their fathers tendencies or they will never come around him. You deserve better, he does nothing for you and to me, it doesn’t seem like you need him.
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He sounds like a manipulator narcissist
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You need to communicate and set boundaries. We only tolerate what we allow. I say that knowing I’ve allowed shitty behavior And treatment. It’s hard because most times you know how the scenario is going to play out before it happens. And if you’re like me you play that over and over in your head. Start sticking up for yourself and calling out his behavior and how it affects you. Tell him what YOU expect from him. Stand your ground and stay strong. Hopefully he will start to understand and if he doesn’t, you’ve built yourself up in the meantime and will know what you need to do from there. 
sending you 
good vibrations of strength:sparkles: if you’ll receive it.
It’s emotional abuse and it’s not ok. If you want to work it out I would recommend couples therapy and work out the issues. If you want to leave it’s time to put a plan in place and leave. You need support and he is not it. He hasn’t hit yet but for him to get that angry I can say it’s not going to be long before he try hitting and see how you take. Kids or not no one should have to put up with that
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Sounds like he is clueless how hard it really is 2 please them all time. He needs 2 look at ure side 1 time…he don’t respect ya…sit him down nd talk bot this nd tell him jow his ways makes ure ways worse…he should see ure side nd give u mama time when he’s off…my hubby let’s me sleep in nd he gives her bath nd Plays With her …I don’t have 2 ask him he does it…now us women are the bk bone of it cuz they couldn’t handle half what we do nd go threw. Communication Is needed in yikes like this so sit him down nd open ya heart 2 him
You’re being abused. He is emotionally and spiritually abusing you. I’d leave. Clearly you can manage being a single mom on your own since it sounds like you’re already doing it. If you left atleast when it’s his turn to spend time with your boys you’d get a break from it all for a bit. He sees you as an employee and he is the boss. He doesn’t seem to see you as an equal partner in your marriage. You are not the maid, the nanny, the chef. You are his wife. He is not treating you like a wife, so don’t continue to treat him as a husband. I think you either need serious counseling if you want to try to save the marriage, or you need to leave the marriage.
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My husband gets on trips like this occasionally. It last maybe half an hour at most because I immediately start giving him things to do. “Okay, well about time for you to start dinner. While your at it, laundry timer just went off and you need to get dishes done. Don’t forget to put clean sheets on the bed, and sweep up, and I can send you tomorrow’s schedule to review while your doing all that.” He may give a “I might as well” but he doesn’t make it far before apologizing.
Hand over some of the responsibilities. Sometimes people have to walk the shoes of another to understand the stress.
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I don’t think you should have to prove yourself to your husband. In some instances, I would say “yea, let him know how much you do”. But for your case, the guy is horrible to you! Don’t waste your time on him!! My goodness, the way he treats you is appalling! He is emotionally and mentally abusing you… Your kids will see his behavior, do you want them to think that’s his your treat people you “love”???
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Sounds like you 2 need some serious counseling.
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Get rid of him and have peace
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He’s 100% abusive. He needs to go. With that said, you need to address your add/adhd. Your explanation of your day and home is classic of adhd. Research it, you’ll understand the how’s and why’s and it will actually be liberating. Our brains and functions are a little different and it makes it harder for neurotypical people to understand. I would tell you to tell him to research it, but I can tell he won’t, and really wouldn’t understand or care. Take some time and go to therapy. Explore prescription treatment to see if that’s something you’re open to, it was life changing for me, but I do understand it’s not for everyone. Anxiety is also a comorbidity of adhd.
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You won’t change his perception. In my opinion he is browbeating you and gaslighting to make you quit your job because he’s trying to convince you that you can’t work and be a good mother and take care of the household while you have a job.
I’m not sure why you stay up nights not sleeping wondering if he loves you or if he’s just tolerating you. I think you should be asking yourself does this feel like love, do I feel valued and appreciated as a mother and a wife.
I feel he resents your independence and feels threatened that you could leave and that you have options. Whatever you decide to do, stay or leave, don’t give up your work and be trapped and dependent on this man.
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Stop doing all the things you do for him and he will see.
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Hope you find the strength to leave
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This is mental abuse coming from him, hardest to prove and it does the most damage. You will never meet his expectations, no matter what you do, this is not good for your boys either. Seek professional help or it will only get worse.
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Stop It! He’s got to go! Your his wife not his servant. Life is just to short for this kind of bull shit.
He is a narcissist. I spent 8 years married to one. He is manipulating, using, abusing, and gas lighting you. He gets off on the power trip of talking down to you and making you feel worthless. It makes him feel superior. This will never change. No amount of therapy can fix it. The man you married does not exist. It was an act. This is who he is and who he will always be. He doesn’t love you… He possesses and controls you. Research narcissism. My advice would be to get out before it leaves an even more devastating impact on you and your children.
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Tell him to go find someone else
You are amazing. You are perfect.
He needs to see that the same shit will happen with anyone else, so he better get used to YOU the way you are.
Being a mom is SOOOO hard as it is. Having OCD or ADD or panic, whatever it is, makes things twice as hard as it does for “regular” moms. My daughter is like you. I can’t imagine her with kids lol.
Girl, you already take care of the kids, cook, clean, and provide. Kick his ass to the curb. He has made your self esteem suffer. No man should treat you like that, especially when you carried his children. You’re doing your very best, sounds like he ain’t putting much effort into anything. Life is too short to be unhappy.
I’m sorry you are going through all of this. I also want to applaud you for being a teacher. I work at my kids school too but just as a recess aide and I feel on most days when I go home I’m mentally exhausted and don’t feel like doing anything. I was a sahm for almost 4 years and was the same way I needed to work again. I had a job lined up as soon as I turned 16. Still even having a job am left with the house work homework doctor appointments and all of that (because I only work 5 hours a day guess that’s not enough)I also lost my dad to covid Jan 1st and feel as though I haven’t even had time to grieve him. I really don’t have advice but just know your not alone. You are only human and can only do so much and he somehow needs to get that through his head. Just remember you are enough and are doing everything you can. You need to just do nothing for a day then he can see what you doing nothing looks like.Sending love your way mama.
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Been doing it with 4 boys and a hard working husband for 28 years now. I do everything even cut the 3 acres of grass and we will never be appreciated but I’m sure they love you dearly, boys dont always know how to show it and I’m convinced they truly dont realize what all we do because we just get it done, we make it look to easy.
Dont suck up
Dont do it all.
Tell him ur done.
Toss the ball in his court and see what happens.
Just remember
You have half the money…
Do not take the abuse, those kids will be damaged goods from the abuse.
If you do it all anyway…
What is he for, what’s his worth, is he a help or hindrance?
Just remember you are doing it all anyway, so where is he needed?
I’m sorry he treats you like this. I think your a supermom 
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Hope you can start to love yourself and set boundaries. 
You’re better off by leaving him. He’s mentally abusing you. I’m sorry your going through this. I hope you find the strength to move on and find happiness.
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I couldn’t read the whole thing but just the title makes me mad… tell him to get off his ass and do it all… you, go away for a few days and leave him to do it all and let him see how much it actually is… he would be sobbing…
I HATE men, wait no not men, BOYS who are like this… my husband would NEVER say that… he knows how hard it is…
Go on strike let them see how much you do
Stop doing things around the house for a few days. Stop cooking, cleaning and go out one evening with some friends etc and he will soon realize what you do and hopefully appreciate you more especially if he has to do some of this stuff.
Sounds like your marriage is not a partnership. My ex was this way, nothing I did was ever good enough. I tried to stay for my kids, but the mistreatment ultimately took such a toll on my mental and emotional well being that I saw it wasn’t worth it, and asked for a divorce. You and your boys, deserve better. They deserve a happy, healthy mama…and you deserve to be that woman.
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Walk away…you and you kids are worth more. F#%k him, what’s to love about that??
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Yeah, you kick his butt out to the curb!
If you feel crazy, you’re with a narcissist. There is no changing their mind or expecting any kind of understanding! Show him the door! Get a therapist and heal.
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Say it with me
“Narcissistic behavior.”
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Sounds like you have a big problem. You have a lousy Husband! My condolences ! Kick him to the curb, and get a good lawyer!!!
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Married and divorced. Fuck that you are amazing and super mom. Stop doing the shit you do do and show him what not doing anything looks like
Never listen to someone who puts you down , he is probably cheating on you and doing this to make him feel justified in doing so , show him the door you don’t need some one who makes you feel bad after all you do .
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Give him an ultimatum, help more with the kids and house or you and the boys leave and he’ll be on his own with house work and kids on HIS time with them when you separate.
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If you do not have your health you have nothing. First, make an appointment to see the doctor for anxiety. 2nd you need “me” time to reset yourself. Been down a similar road. Next ditch the man in your life he is not making your life any better. You are not crazy, you are a mother and a hard worker.
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Nope, he needs to put up the money to hire help to assist you or needs to sit down and shut his mouth. His behaviors towards you have red flags all over it and are abusive. He’s adding to the decline of your mental health and your panic attacks. You won’t find out until you are removed from the situation, it’s hard to see it when you’re in it. Speaking from experience. You deserve better.
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Throw the whole man out and file for child support and alimony. Stop being a door mat for someone who doesn’t appreciate you
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I’m sorry. That’s abuse. Leave his butt because it will not get better.
He is emotionally abusing you. He will not change. Take your kids and get out or have all the locks changed, sit his shit outside and tell him to get bent.
What I did when I dealt with that was … I stopped doing everything that I normally did. I didn’t cook, didn’t clean, I didn’t do laundry, I didn’t do a damn thing. I didn’t even speak to him during this process. I left one note explaining (you are constantly telling me that I don’t do anything and that I’m not good enough. well I will now stop doing all of the things that you claim “I don’t do” and maybe it will help you realize what I really do accomplish on a day to day basis. Also it will now give me plenty of time to hit the gym and hang out with the girls, which I never do, so maybe someone else will have the time to notice me when you’re done putting me down and I finally realize my true worth and leave your a**. Hopefully during this time you man up, figure out couples counseling for the both of us, and take the time to see what you have before you lose it fully. I love you but I love me too and enough is enough !!! )
Throw the whole man away girl.
I’m proud of you, your doing a great job…
Leave… Easier said than done. Go find your peace. You deserve peace.
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Just cause he doesn’t hit you doesn’t mean he isn’t abusive he is mentally abusing you and that causes a lot of damage it sounds like you are already doing everything so why do you need him around it sounds like it time to get couples counseling or to leave him.
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You’re doing amazing. Just because someone else doesn’t see it it doesn’t mean you’re not doing enough. You need to leave him. He clearly doesn’t respect you or appreciate the things you do for him and the kids. I’m sorry you’re with someone that treats you like that because you don’t met their standards. There is nothing wrong with you. Start practicing gratitude for yourself
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This is abuse!! He doesn’t have to hit you to abuse you. This is emotional, mental, and verbal abuse. Please see assistance with a counselor or a domestic abuse shelter. Make a plan and stick to the plan. He has set you up for failure.
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Sweetie- you deserve better - not he deserves better. Sounds like your husband is unhappy with himself and his life. So he’s lashing out at you. Stop telling him what happened- cause he just going to tell you it’s an excuse. If something is done to his expectations- tell him to do it and show you.
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In a nutshell, I’ve been where you are. He wants perfection from you but doesn’t have the same expectations for himself. He is mentally abusing you whether you’d like to label it that way or not. If he wants his boys to have more attention from you, then he should be doing more tasks. If he’d like you to be skinnier then he should be asking you what he can do to help out, so that you can have time to take care of yourself. He is the epitome of selfishness. Sounds like my old situation. You can’t live like this, it’s not healthy for your kids either. Mine are grown now and I’m
Remarried. There’s no easy path for you except to say, you need to find a life of peace for you and your children and you don’t change selfish people like him. Sorry for your situation but as I’ve said I was in a very similar situation and the only cure is to get out. Its not easy, but it does lead to your peace. I wish you strength and good luck.
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Youve got a narc on your hands. He wont change. It wont get better, only worse. They wont go to counseling or do anything to improve the situation. The best thing you can do is get out
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My heart felt this vent! My sister, I KNOW EXACTLY what you’re talking about and I am sorry for the way he is treating you. I lived this life before. - here is my story, and I hope it gives you some courage to know you’re not alone and there is a way out.
I was together/married for 11 years and 11 months to a man exactly like this man you’re explaining. The month before our 12th year anniversary, I asked him for a divorce.
He wasn’t always like this, but then it all began to make sense. He began seeing other women. I wasn’t good enough, I wasn’t thin or beautiful anymore after our two kids. I wasn’t a good mom, I wasn’t a good wife, I didn’t clean right, and I wasn’t helping him enough.
He met woman who were better than I was (in his mind and eyes) and he began to make me feel it.
I asked why he was so mean to me, and his answer was “because I make him mad” I asked him if he loved me and his answer was “are you stupid, why would you ask me that, I’m with you right?” So I asked him for counseling, couples therapy, for us to go church, asking others for prayer or anything to make our marriage work.
He refused everything. (This man had hit me. He would yell in my face, pin me against the wall, punch holes and even threaten me) but I loved him and wanted my marriage and family to stay together.
One of the best days of my life was April 1st 2010. I had no clue where the courage came from, I had no clue what I was going to do or where I was going to go if he locked me out, but I just had enough! I had no more tears. My heart stopped hurting, I wasn’t confused anymore, it was like I woke up and wasn’t in love with him anymore. (It was insane to me the way my feelings and emotions just stopped)
So I asked him if he was happy, and he just looked at me with a disgusting look, took a moment and said “yes”.
I looked at him and told him I wasn’t happy and I wanted a divorce. - I thought he was going to beat me! I was really scared, but he didn’t.
He asked me who I was sleeping with or talking to, and my response was “no one else but you”.
For two weeks he didn’t talk to me and on that Saturday of the second week, he packed all his clothes, took all his weights (he worked out) and he left.
I NEVER LOOKED BACK! It was definitely not easy, he put me through it. The custody was not easy, he definitely tried to hurt me with my babies. But I tell you what…my strength came from somewhere and I didn’t back down!
After 3 years of court dates and back and forth, “it was finished” - he didn’t make life easy for me after this, but I was definitely free and began to live my life.
Fast forward to Feb 2018, I met my now husband and have been married for 3 years. Life is definitely different and my marriage is absolutely beautiful.
If you read this far thank you. Let me tell you that prior to leaving, I wasn’t religious, I didn’t know Jesus, I didn’t have a relationship with God at all! In fact I would think people were hypocritical when they would tell me they were Christians and still lived like the rest of us.
But that courage to leave, the peace and calmness I had when I woke up came from somewhere.
I know now Jesus was with me, Jesus carried me that far because I couldn’t carry myself. Jesus gave me the heart and mind I needed to go though this day after day.
I was given the strength and courage I needed to leave, and I had no clue it was Jesus.
I’m not telling you this to push any religious beliefs, to push Jesus or God on you,…but to let you know you’re not alone and loved by Jesus.
When you’re ready and realize you are worth more, you too will wake up one morning and know what to do.
I pray for your marriage and that God may change your husband. I ask for your courage and peace to be restored. I ask God to protect you and allow your joy in life to be restored.
YOU ARE WORTH MORE! YOU ARE LOVED!! YOU ARE A GOOD MOM! YOU ARE A WONDERFUL PROVIDER!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND STRONG! - Hugs mama.
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Leave his ass out on the porch dump him
That’s bs! Raising children is a full time, 24/7 job! Tell him to kiss your ass!
Go on a me vacay. Have him do all you do. When he comes to realize all that you do, have him call you. I did.y hubby lasted 5 days. After that so much changed. He started helping and stopped criticisising me. With that, I lost weight, I couldn’t. We will be celebrating 37 years of marriage in Nov. I am not saying it will work for everyone,. but if he is still committed to you and your family, it will. If not Plan D, divorce. He won’t change
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He needs anger management !!!
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Get out now. He is a bully and has his own inadequacies which he is trying to project onto you, putting you down, to make himself feel better and more superior rather than take practical steps to improve himself. He no doubt believes he has got you where he wants you, that he can carry on such behaviour and treatment towards you but you are stuck and have no way of getting out. Go to a women’s shelter or at least seek an appointment with a solicitor. Whilever he thinks he’s got you where he wants you, he will not stop. I’ve had similar so know what I am talking about. x
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Mental/Emotional abuse is just the same as physical abuse. The only difference is the type of scars they leave.
You deserve better. Your children deserve better. No one can make the right decision on what to do, you must do that. Just remember one thing, the longer you allow your children to witness their father treat you that way, the higher likelihood they will also treat their future partners the same way.
Breaking the cycle of abuse is very hard but it can be done. I know because I am living proof. Good luck. (((Hugs)))
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